Looking back into the past .. and analysing wut I am today~
I think I’m getting better in achievements .. but yet .. I’m gettin weaker inside .. my souL are the precioUs thing God had given me, n yet I stil cudnt take a very gud care of it ..
my souL~ the emptiness I felt in my Life –
God ..
am I being too far from YOU ..
am I being so selfish, that I seldom ask for your KINDNESS
am I being so proud, that I always PRETEND I hv the HAPPINESS
am I being so busy wif stuffs, that I dun have time for YOU …
am I, GOD ?
nevermind - I know the answer ..
there were times .. when I felt so empty, I cried, and anything I’ve planned, turned out to be A DISASTER .. the people I’ve hoped for, juz couldn’t be there, with so much reasons that I defined as EXCUSES, and sadly, they juz went away~
tears were once my BEST friends .. loneliness and sadness worked together .. and I was like a dust, useLess, gone with the wind~
but somehow, after a long cry, this empty soul of mine, suddenly became a bit coloured, HOPE .. yeah .. it whispered HOPE .. and slowLy.. my tears were drying .. I washed em out wif a bit CONFIDENCE, and put on a li’l DETERMINATION, and the lips, began to SMILE ..
I smiled all the way in the journey ahead.. as I was walking slowly, I looked around. I saw lots of people infront,with a smile in their faces, and the people beside me were holding my hands, and their faces are full of joy and satisfaction. Inspired by the smiles, I was convinced that they will surely lead me to HAPPINESS, so I walked a li’l bit faster.
It was juz then when I’ve gained my CONFIDENCE again, I felt like looking back to the steps I’ve left behind. AND THAT WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA .. it was juz then I realized I haven’t recover enough from the bad experience. My CONFIDENCE were suddenly blowed away by these faces that I had almost forgotten..
My steps became slower, and slower, till I stopped. I let go the hands that were holding me. What happened to me? Yeah, stupid reason. I was still hoping for the people that had ignored me, that were never there for me, that had ripped my innocent piece of heart out, that had made tears a friend of mine, that were pretending they care for me …
And there came the rain .. hey .. where did my sunshine go ? And those people I was waiting for, walked passing me by, without any notice of my presence ..
and here I am .. waiting for the rain to stop .. I’ll keep walking, but this time I won’t stop anymore, cause I know ahead, somewhere, the rain will stop, and I’ll get to see my sunshine, and if I’m lucky, I’ll experienced the gift of life — A COLORFUL RAINBOW~ and yeah, I do have beside me, ppl that wud never let go my hands — whom I considered as FamILy & frIEnds .. BEST FRIENDS !!
THANX !! we’ll meet the RAINBOW SOONER OR LATER ",
HAVE FAITH ",
and GOD~ from now on.. this empty souL, wudn’t be EMPTY~ cause I’m coloring iT .. with the colors of the RAINBOW ",
I thank You GOD — for each fate that U wrote for my LIFE .. is nothing better but THE BEST !! ",
thanx=)
yoURs truLy — mISs NurMasirahMohdZain –
